So today is the day I am leaving the Philippines to go back to my home in the north of China. I am full of such mixed emotions. I have found myself drawn to the thoughts of when I will be back in China, in my house and around my personal things. To be in my city where I work and live. But I am saddened obviously because I am leaving my children behind. At about 2:10pm my flight left to head to Manila. I am sitting at the Manila International Terminal 2 Airport now next to gate N1. I am hurting while I sit here thinking about my daughter as she cried for nearly a half hour while I held her. I reassured her that she will be living with me real soon, as early as two weeks. But that was little comfort. I do not say I love one child more then another or love any of them any different from the others but it is true I feel closer to my daughter that I know. I believe the reason this is, is because where my youngest I have only seen twice now since his birth about a year and a half ago and that I a reason I think I feel less pain for him and my elder son who is now 3 and was 1 when he went to the Philippines and he as well I have seen only three times in the last two years; my daughter I raised I mean I was the one feeding and changing here till she was almost 5. I hate to say it but that is why I think I feel closer to her then either of the other two boys.
Well I am out of here in a little while it is already 5:08pm. My flight from here will take me to Hong Kong where I should wait, unless I find a sooner flight, for about 12 hours. All I can say is thank God Hong Kong’s airport has free WiFi.
Well I am sure I will write more when I get to Hong Kong and find a seat to call home for 12 hours. But for now I will say my goodbyes and wish you all the best in your travels and in life.
This is Di saying good day, and good mental health.
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